Ruined Before Finished – Coming Out Backwards


Experimental blog has made it’s way to a very surprising fork in the road. Blogger. Blogging. American. Poet.


I’m writing a book.


I started this book, well, I started writing on a computer Sept. 30th – Oct, 1st, and wrote all the way up until October 12th, 2017. It’s official date of inception was August 23rd, 2016 in which details a survivor story… where, I’m the survivor.


I’ve made a lot of mistakes. My life isn’t peachy, but I’m not a murderer. Nor am I a filthy rich anything special, but a girl with a very terrible story, that also happens to be true.


Preparing to be called a hoax, an actor, a narcissist, and anything else in between, I believe my crimes are petty compared to the claims I have to make. Such as a government sending “look-alikes of dead family members” who’ve recently died. Sometimes the suspected espionage lookalike is holding an object that is further coincidental to my belief that said dead family may have been murdered. It’s difficult to explain, hence a book.


Copycats have already arisen. However, what my book reports is actually an Ancient Roman warlord tactic, in which a person is followed around and lead to believe they’re not safe using symbols or simply paying people to be rude, thus running out the unwanted person out of town or worst case scenario to a forced suicide.


My book will suspect that the tactic explained above, known today as cognitive infiltration, may have easily been used to force political Internet activist like Aaron Swartz to commit suicide. My book is an extreme case of not only cognitive infiltration, but a list of other atrocious offenses.


The largest mistake of my entire life will have been that I trusted a man named “Robert Lyn Dampos.” Dampos has yet to respond to my 10 months of pleas as a pedogate Hollywood victim.


America’s history is being written, and it is torture for everyone involved.


My story will entail and eventually expose how the CIA, FBI, NSA, Hollywood, Google, most all social media, mainstream news, all radio stations (including non-profits), hospitals, police, festivals, and security of private companies can all be infiltrated, bought, and used to not only target and stalk groups of labeled individuals (activists, artists, whistle blowers, journalists, etc.) can be tormented and abused without proper investigation for stalker type behaviors.


Essentially, I will explain through my own experience, how someone as simple as a blogger who’s opinion is  that “American warlords are #1 largest terrorists …” is indeed true.


I suffer PTSD after what happened. Although, what happened was so very large, that I already had a handwritten journal, that if I died, which I thought, and I’ll have to explain later, that I was too die soon.


Again, simply, what I could say is, “I found out what cognitive infiltration is, and how it can be used to make a persons life beyond miserable.” Not only does the American government wish to murder any like me… a tested and approved peaceful activist… I’ve handed my book over to Robert Lyn Dampos’s bosses, who work for this big bad espionage media mogul who are already copycatting my story, and probably even the way I wrote the manuscript, which was full of editorial crap like: *^^ >><>> …


Which are notes and not something one publishes.


When I learned about the LV Shooting, I stopped writing because I went back on to the Internet after writing 150 pages of the book detailing how American warlords, with corporate moguls, including Hollywood, have taken over America’s secret police through National Security Agencies mass spying capabilities.


My book is to report and expose how the Pedophile Rings are able to access and infiltrate any and all devices connected to the Internet.


Unfortunately, because this is real life, my real life memoir I’m writing, and it will expose some strange tactics that can all be pointed back to the CIA, the FBI, and again, Hollywood.


Everybody dies.


My book will detail and suspect a lot of murder, and it will all be suspected and placed blame onto the secret police and the “alphabet stew” and their hush hush over everything.


With the JFK papers coming out soon, everyone will begin to learn just what the secret police are sweating rocks about.


Furthermore, my book will come back weaving together how many of these terrorist attacks, including 9/11 was indeed an inside job.



I will be smeared.
Instead of letting the media smear me..


I’ve decided to take a tip from Tyrion Lannister and slowly leak out the things in my life that are stupid bullcrap that only teens would care about right?


Well. Maybe I won’t do that, but essentially, that is what is entertainment news right?


Following Anewwe’s Search For Eudaimonia,
We have the largest eye of all: the elite.


They’ve read 150+ pages of my book already.
Not only because I’m an idiot made scared by the LV Shooting, but because I gave my manuscript to that guy Dampos.




This is not a stunt. Dampos is not the man’s real name. But it sure is close to Campos, that Jesus Campos guy ..


My book will regurgitate information that already exists about electronic harassment devices. These, I call them heart attack devices, and I’ve got a great number of claims to make about how covert murders and cognitive infiltration has been causing deaths that seem health related or depression.


Cognitive infiltration can lead to force suicides.


My book will attempt to bring light to this situation with humor incorporated.


As such, I think it’s time to turn the light on to this blog. I think I’ll do a bit of spring cleaning?


I’ve got a lot of work to do guys. Not only as a full-blown writer, author, book writer, poet, I’ve got a lot to say after not saying much.


My problem is that my platform here at was never anything to begin with, but, I will stay true to me. I’m not anyone else. Anewwe is my trollish name, I have many. I’m an American citizen, and my unfinished  book is in the hands of warlords.


That book they have… it’s about them — but, it’s about me too.


Then again, even more, the story is about how I found the government believes in the afterlife, and that they try to use the laws of the universe for a different kind of control.


This book will detail how a personality, how a celebrity, could be scared into not saying how they were “discovered.”


Yes. Cover your eye.
Flap your wings.


My book, the pedophiles I want to expose, they have the book I foolishly handed over to that Dampos character. That guy. I wanted to detail how some artists are discovered.


Coming out is the scariest thing… but… I don’t have sex with children


1776: They Will Care

This song is how I feel, until my death. I will never have someone else force their opinions on me.

Mass spying is essentially a meat market to the elite.

Pizza-gate is an iceberg, and America is covertly sinking.

This is my S.O.S.

Stay safe, this is a mind war.
email: for support

Until then please research: Cognitive Infiltration

Abraham Lincoln’s Killer Dreams

World. Hello.
Hello, American government
(You realize it’s a blog? Putting myself out there).

Reporting from some defective soapbox. Blog never was news, but “fun” information posted here at the Anewwe’s Search for Eudaimonia (Eudaimonia means “happiness”). Obama’s nsa admin. decided to  spread lies about this “anonymous” blogger. Federal agents went as far as to spread the lie that I was being called “the queen of anonymous” … No. Not the queen of hacking… not even the queen of blogging.                       [[LONG STORY… REDACTED]]

This blog was a copy paste a lot of the time. Now I don’t feel comfortable sharing myself to the government, but that’s what being on the Internet is for the entire world. We are all sharing our insides with the government. They scraped my history to the bone. Scary shit. Why?:

Our government admitted to the harassment, stalking, and assassination of Martin Luther King JR., and so many more atrocities to peaceful changers and social justice workers, journalists, scientists, artists, etc.,etc…

This may be the last time I write a blog of this nature. Unfortunate as it’s my religious and political self being hated upon. I realize not many people read this blog, and I garnered heavy attention from the moguls I was reporting on —

Giants vs. Blogger
Blogger decides to run for office.

That’s right folks. Anewwe Evolve “Ani Wheat” started this blog to follow “the yellow brick road” and now I’ve discovered the “Gordian Knot” of marionettes. Oh what fun to speak in metaphors, isn’t it?

Nobody knows, but the biggest readers of poetry is our National Security Agents. Hey dudes, I’m a poet, not a terrorist. Within is your own enemy, may you find peace.

Now, to the real reason I was going to blog about. ::WEIOWEE SIRENS:: Blogger blogging!!

Yesterday I learned that Abraham Lincoln believed that our dreams were gateways into spiritual warnings (premonitions). During his first term as President, he had a dream where he saw a double exposure of his own face. One was colorful, happy, healthy painting the other was pale and “looked like death.” The couple interpreted the dream as Abraham would die in his second year of office.

In his second term, he had another disturbing dream, in which he was wondering around the Whitehouse with people mourning and an open casket. He asked a man who’d died and the man said “The President.” Three days after the dream Abraham Lincoln was shot, and the rest is history.



The Light of my Life

Aww, if you missed the poem by Howard Moss, it’s called Front Street. And it’s so hilarious how much it pertains to the NSA’s collection of peace lovers.

David Bowie is one of the many lights of my life. I wish to share another poem that I’ve read recently. It pertains metaphorically to a predicament that I see. If I had more data to upload a video of me reading the poem, I’d do it, but I lack some data requirements, so you’ll have to read this poem. I let you interpret your own meaning:

by Thomas H. Vance

The air of the museum
Warns “Do not touch.” Propped still,
The divine statues wear
Sleep that could spring and kill.

That sinewy warrior, king,
Has waked, and stares in stone.
His eyes are beyond fear.
He ages; his mind is gone.

With a dead tongue he cools
The whispering visitors;
Around his niche, his cave,
The riveted city towers.

Around his marble arms
That crushed the fierce demon,
How cold through finicking glass
The atoms of light pour down.

Fabulous, finished and stripped,
For a great fall he stands:
He held up state and sky;
Hard time is on his hands.

He sees his shadow, nothing,
Etched on the scholar’s book;
Pressed with the print of death,
He is praised, but cannot speak.

But yet his majesty moves:
Stealing, hidden and still,
When midnight melts the walls,
He slips his pedestal.

O now he leaps to life
In shafts deeper than rock;
In rooms no city roofs
This conqueror cleaves the dark.

Magnificent in the night
He slays his spectral foes,
He wastes the astonished earth
And wounds the still shadows.

Bent, blind, he walks in blood;
Striding in sleep, nightmares,
Beyond the darkest pole,
He freezes, but still endures.

His proud arms, perilous thews,
Stiffen in silent stone.
The slow light threads his hands
That thrashed the lost dragon.

— by Thomas H. Vance


My inspirational desktop. My bullies have made me strong.The light of my life lingers in the hearts of all souls, and my abusers know that I choose love and (eventually) forgiveness. I cannot be bought. The gods of all beliefs are with me on one thing: the power of love. I am not a terrorist, but I sometimes call my cat one…–when he knocks stuff off the counter…!

I am a mellow bringer of peace, and my fingerprint upon humanity lives forever;
within my words are truth and beauty. Our souls will live forever. Our dreams are ours.
My government knows me better than my family. What a terrible revelation, because
my government has been known to murder peaceful people.

Please google search: gang-stalking and no-touch torture.It is a terrible offense to our countries beautiful dreamers and wonderful thinkers. Our scientists, whistleblowers, and bloggers (me) have and are being subjected to this illegal technique. It is the biggest threat to creative peaceful people of our planet. All Occupiers are not safe. I am an American, and a dreamer of love in all actions, but I was still subject to this terrible practice. Because I called the head of NSA “my fuzzy puppet” among many other things. Essentially, it’s a form of psychological blackmail, and it is very difficult to prove.

Please educate yourself of this historically illegal technique. It is an insult to Democracy, freedom, and justice. It’s what they did to Martin Luther King Jr. and they’re still doing it, and with complete collection, due to the NSA, it makes it very easy to psychologically torture a target. These people will be forgiven whenever they decide to stop torturing good loving citizens. Until it stops, I fear for the soul of humanity. Our evolution is being hindered and our freedoms have been fractured. Celebrities are probably most aware of these illegal techniques, but anyone who speaks out about it is subject to the abuse.

…I speak out about it because it was the worst experience of my entire life, and if I had known the terms “gang-stalking” and “no-touch torture,” then I would have been better equipped to speak to the doctors and case workers I was subjected to during my gang-stalking ordeal. Instead, my medical files will paint me as something that I am not. I am not a psychotic. I am a functional creative being, and love my art and ideas. I just don’t follow through with every project I do, because I love to do so many different activities… I am supposed to be writing a fantasy novel, but because I was just recently gang-stalked, I am distracted by what I now know. And with a $24K medical bill, I am sad and feel as if I am living in a metaphorical Nazi Germany. I am afraid to be me, because everything I do is monitored.
It feels terrible to be afraid to share, because I love to share. We are at a Catch-22, because my government let me know they could kill me at any minute, but they don’t. But I am left with the realization that America is in the dark about just how much control the secret police truly have.

If I tried to run for President, they’d probably just kill me.
I’m still alive, but gang-stalking should be very much illegal.

Anewwe’s Search for Eudaimonia

Las Vegas Shooting Is Not A Hoax (Old Recent News Revisited)


Bullies online need to be questioned. Just like a typewriter, comments made online can easily be tracked using all of National Security Agencies espionage mass spying capabilities. I’m not a hacker, so that’s not something I can do, but I thought the NSA was being paid to find abusers, terrorists, and extreme bullies. They don’t, but they could.

Instead, we’ve found out through not only Edward Snowden’s revelations, but many other NSA whistleblowers, that the NSA is sometimes more interested in sex than anything else. That and torturing private citizens who know too many secrets. Guess that’s why Snowden ran away and was as sneaky as he was.

These bullies.

Is anyone paying private citizens to torture victims or is it taxes funding ‘shills’ to bully survivors? Below is a link to an article about a couple who survived only to come home to death threats on the Internet, because some private citizens are claiming the LV Shooting a hoax (“fake news”), which it was not.

Las Vegas shooting victim slammed with death threats: ‘I hope someone truly shoots you’

The narrative soon becomes a philosophical down spiral of, “where does opinion and freedom of speech on the Internet draw the line?” How dangerous is social media and how many of those accounts are funded by private or federally funded sources?:

Cyber stalking (as defined by UK law)

Where and how do we draw a line on what is legal when it comes to online bullying and what is punishable if proven guilty of psychological damage to victims of true traumatic experiences, such as the LV Shooting in which the question is not if it happened, but how many more shooters were on the ground [on rooftops] and why is the media not talking about the extra gunmen survivors are reporting they heard?

Also, that same night, several “unrelated” shoot-outs were simultaneously occurring– but hotel owners and locals were told to keep their mouths shut, because they didn’t want the extra shootings in the national spotlight along with Jesus Campos and the shooter, Paddock. — I have family who live and work in Vegas and locals and businesses don’t want the world to see their city as a dangerous place. It’s terrible for business–

True considerate theorists (public investigators) aren’t speculating the reality that people died, people really died, it’s just the shooting was (most likely) orchestrated [coordinated] by a group of rich people, but who? We private citizens are wondering why the FBI erased witnesses phone and laptop data, further why witnesses who are reporting more than one gunman are being either shot or dying in their beds. [Kym Suchomel & Orville Almon Jr.]

FBI Returns Phones To Vegas Eyewitnesses, Owners Immediately Notice What’s Missing

Another Vegas Shooting Eyewitness Murdered – Found Dead in Abandoned House

Kym Suchomel’s death is suspicious as her report went against what the media was saying. Suchomel was wanting to collect witnesses to campaign against what she saw as pure lie of medias refusal to mention the other gunman she and others have claimed were present.

Suchomel, even though she had a medical history of seizures and was suffering PTSD from the shooting, her death is being suspected [by me & others, but not her immediate family who I further suspect may have been offered banknotes in exchange for possible silence, denial, and no investigation searches] as strange and possibly a covert form of murder that is not spoken of in the media, for obvious reasons, I’m referring to a weapon that causes seizures, can cause a person to crumple [fall over], and cause what appears to be a heart attack [seizure, health related; doctors promoting:

Anti-pharma lifestyles are not safe and sometimes have been dying 6,6,6

The people responsible are playing bloody house of Dexter with the entire world (took over Hollywood [Disney, etc.] & then Hollywood took over the U.S. DoD [and all the rest]. Just an idea.

Everyone in power is owned by a scary weapon that is the ultimate get-away —

The Government’s Heart Attack Gun

Before we go on: don’t trust Q all the way (aka a Pied Piper); it’s exciting how this Q group from 4Chan has garnered attention, but a wolf in sheep’s finery (if you ask me) and “Q” will probably be filled with a punch pack of lies to really kill the human spirit (November 11th, 2018) and open-minded people who have been trying to take back the story of history and who keeps killing all the f*cking peaceful people digging for the f*cking truth–

Sorry — I don’t cuss often, I’m cool with religion, only when I’m wanting to talk about bloody murder, I get as angry as Bill O’Reilly’s great grandmother having a hot flash in a fish factory — purple face to fit my purple prose —

Targeted Individual Kathleen Watterson Wins Electronic Harassment Court Case

The weapons I will be continuing to report on in further blog posts (maybe) will reveal a tool belt of espionage assassination weapons known, authorized, and utilized by U.S. military and secret alphabet authorities, or read Shadow Government by Grant R. Jeffery, I highly recommended despite it’s Biblical references to only Christianity, but the author is a pastor, but he did his research:

Shadow Government by Grant R. Jeffery

Heck, I’m not afraid to claim these high-tech weapons are (most likely) being used by the CIA, the FBI, and possibly private contractor companies [mogul titans]’s elite disenfranchised lackeys– I simply call them (they) “it” this elite gang, others call it a “Cabal.” The problem is how many are calling the missile shots–

Cabal Dresses Lightworkers Calls For A “Resistance”

Beware the one who wants you to go without question, away from your old friends and family, don’t go, no matter what they’re promising. It not stranger danger, there’s a real a mafia on the loose, but it’s okay, they’ve been playing games with celebrities too, a lot of bought and lied to well meaning acronyms, and they’re “buddies” bosses with the U.S secret agencies and when blackmail is rampant, there’s nothing anyone can do but jump when the blackmailed boss says jump the lackeys jump or die.

However, these speculations about the acronym police are speculation of a pseudonym blogger. Anyone wants to label me, I’ll be wearing a shirt that says: Blogger (Party) On– and the back says, but now I write books and blog. Should I put the target on the blog, the front, or the back?

Gaga Wore A Dress of Meat; She Dances In The Meat Market, This Is All Political

I suspect fowl play in not only Kym Suchomel and Orville Almon Jr.’s death, but I believe the bullies tormenting survivors may not be anything but people paid to bully. Claims I certainly can’t prove on my own, but I’m not bullying anyone. I’d like to keep these types of things from happening… I know how this girl feels and was lucky to not be a teen when the near life-death “bullying” I am detailing in my book–

Back To The Shooting — As Kym Reported The Scene

Kym Suchomel’s Facebook social media report detailed that about 15 seconds before the gunshots began fireworks were set off.

Suchomel said the crowd first thought the gunshots were the fireworks, but then everyone began to realize it was more than just fireworks. The survivor and her friends also reported that before the firecrackers a Hispanic woman was warning concert goers that they were going to die. The Hispanic woman warning others grabbed another woman and shook her repeating again, “You’re all going to die!” before cops escorted the woman away, and then minutes passed before the slow and then fast bullet fire from the golden hotel above the country show.

What’s important here, is that the ones bullying the survivors of this real shooting need to be speculated as possibly hired by mogul media groups trying to steer and weave the narrative that “conspiracy theorists” are a bunch of cold-hearted bully bastards, which is a label. A sinister label. A label of a bully.

A group of people with a lot of money are attempting to worsen the vocabulary and persona associated with the word “conspiracy.”

JFK Papers coming out soon, but what about the truth? With years of speculations portrayed as facts up the wazoo, the truth, experts say might never come out.

Shills need to be made unconstitutional and illegal.

Oh, just my opinion. I want the Internet to have only people and not paid people with paid opinions, unless they’re writing information to sell legitimate products and services (plumbing, dentists, dog shampoo). I want real customers and real reviews. I want investigators with real questions. Not investigators who investigate paid investigations of only threatened and paid people.

Conspiracy is a word used before the manufacturing of aluminum.

Conspiracy is not a label to be laughed at. Conspiracy is collusion and both implies muddy murder and power plays.

A Joke Mission For The New Head Of NSA– (Hey New Fuzzy Puppet, Buh-bye Rogers) This blog is not a joke and my opinions take years to extrapolate why the name behind the blogger is so damn mad, glad, and sad all at one in numb peace–

These poor shooting victims, the National Security Agency could easily… turn their eyes away from the porn, their ex-girlfriend, the peaceful activists, the journalists, the whistle blowers, the poets; they’re [who’re?] paid to masturbate to (blackmail sex sells, on a forum writing poems), and track down the crappy people saying the LV Shooting didn’t happen.

What Happened? I think the author SEO’ed the paragraph for hoots and hollers…

I can’t believe anyone would spend time creating a meme to torture another besides a teenager, a Satanist, or Hollywood …maybe, it’s still speculation, but NSA’s hands are tied and their mouths gagged. Wonder if that’s the way they like it?

Boom. Is This Mic. On?

Speculation: who the hell is allowing bullies to type to victims of the LV Shooting “I hope you really do die.” Oh.My. That would be freedom of speech? Yes, but bullying is freedom?

Well. It’s not illegal. Or.. Yes. It is illegal.

But, we have government agents and private contractors being paid to remain online commenting and “searching” for what exactly? The day in the life of an NSA agent is illegal to share. But James Bamford got a door peak inside, here’s a link to the wiki about A Body of Secrets ( perhaps this is the full text: PDF)

Report: Hotel owner MGM pressured Las Vegas guard Jesus Campos to only appear on “Ellen”

Writer In Hiding Blogged Down The Hole

Blogger’s Bloogers. I don’t make up lies, I just sometimes don’t get the fact straight. Here’s a promise with a confession: I use to copy paste activist articles I liked, but sometimes, I was so busy, I didn’t even finish the article long enough to research the topic and write my own, and the promise is: no more copy pasting activist articles, as it is about as terrible as the Copypasta monster, and I found some of those positive articles throw in their own positive lies dressed as facts — Experience and eye witnesses are all that is left and investigative reporting is dead dead dying and the Copypasta monster took over all the lipstick powered talking media heads–

I think I know Why O’Reilly Yells So Much… Maybe…? Paid To Lie? Just An Idea
Actually, I’ve been blogging since 1998, somewhere out there in the dark net lives a panda, penguin, and a fish, in the land of nihilism, lost forever, just like America will be if this narrative doesn’t get fixed.

LV Shooting happened, but the local police and FBI erased peoples cell phones and data. I already showed you that link– Don’t forget to screenshot your bully for evidence, some ‘bullies’ are getting fed data content from personal conversations and can be re-used by companies and private contractors who purchase collected data you sign off on by using any and every app, straight down to your cellphone being used as a microphone.

*(Today, FBI don’t need to wire a house to spy on “terrorists” like Martin Luther King Jr… Silly U.S. citizens have handed over all privacy to the ones assassinating and harassing all the activists that are aiming for citizens equality, basic justice, and peace.)

Now victims of several different shooting have been getting bullied online, but by WHO? And why isn’t mass spying able to track down these bullies with a warrant? I ask, but I suspect and will never claim “I know.” Usually the answer is it’s always “the richest people on the planet.”

My belief is that the bullies in question are actually those shills who are being paid by either some private company, or the government themselves.

Something about crowd on demand, even online. Those are shills. It’s a business to keep lying, but the lying pays the bills of many disenfranchised. It’s sad beyond belief what the bullies write online, and they may or may not realize that it does actually kill people and mess with lives beyond believable, so much in fact that if I were to continue onward, with everything I had to say, it could cause civil wars, global wars, and blogger reader fatigue, which is why a book is what I write behind the scenes of the Internet–

These people (LV Shooting victims) are [were] seriously being tormented, and the bullies in question could be [have been] found, questioned, and stopped– it’s all going to be detailed further in the textbook history I’m writing as the news continues and Q’s posts show is nature, which is (most likely) a huge game play to be disgustingly disappointed [perhaps].

Knock on Wood

Governments are working every side and using tax payers money to do it. Not every politician and not every acronym who-ha is a bad guy. Just like any war (clandestine or otherwise) there’s good guys dressed to play the Professor Snape. Dude. I can’t believe I went there. Yeah, and the Death Eaters go wild–

Thanks for reading this.

I write other blogs and even use different author names, but I’m not into ads on showing you ways to find me. What do I care. Haven’t you seen enough?

Writing a book takes a lot of work, but when one realizes the historical lies are piled way too high, the problem becomes one issue: take back the tale of history before it runs away with the youth–



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